My heart is not proud, O Lord, my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. (Psalm 131:1, NIV)
If you want to move in the right direction from pain to peace, at some point, you have to let go of questions you cannot answer.
Usually these questions begin with the words: “Why did God allow…” Why did God allow what happened to you?
Way back in the 11th century, there was an English monk by the name of Anselm. He struggled with the whole question of believing when you do not understand, and he wrote a famous prayer.
I do not seek, O Lord, to penetrate Thy depths.
I by no means think my intellect equal to them:
But I long to understand in some degree Thy truth, which my heart believes and loves.
For I do not seek to understand that I may believe,
But I believe, that I may understand.
There are some questions you will never answer in this life. “The secret things belong to the Lord” (Deut. 29:29). Wanting to know all things is like trying to put yourself in the position of God. That’s idolatry. Only God knows all things and you are not God.
Faith lives with unanswered questions. There comes a point where you have to lay them at the foot of the cross and say with Anselm, “I don’t need to understand everything before I can believe, but I believe so that one day, God, I may understand.”
Is there an unanswered question you need to lay at the foot of the cross today?